I'm starting in prayer and asking if I would be granted the opportunity to witness the trials of Job and his experiences and the honor of learning from them.
I'm being granted access and taken to that point in time.
I see him humbly working the fields. He has a loving family and plenty of crops and animals on his farm. He looks quite blessed. He is also very dedicated and prayer and faith.
As I'm watching a few thoughts are popping in my mind. Why is it that some people have extraordinary trials when others seem to have it fairly easy? Is that even true or is that just the deceived perception leading us away from the truth.
Now from everything I've been taught so far God does not have favorites and there's no hierarchy that is a false perception. However the scriptures do say that job was highly favored in God's eye. So am I wrong in that understanding or do we misunderstand the statement in the scriptures? And why did God let Satan destroy everything? Is it just to teach us a lesson?
Does Job represent all of us? Are we all favored in God's eye when given opportunities to overcome great trials and when we still choose to follow him then we are given blessings. Was it important for us to understand that God did not prevent Satan from attacking. And if we keep our Focus and the proper alignment then God can bless us tenfold. Maybe everything fell apart because he needed to be humbled or maybe everything fell apart because he had a worldly perspective of his gifts even though he was a righteous man. Which is true for many of us where we are committed and dedicated to God but yet life seems to just keep throwing us into more trials. What did he do to remain in a space where he was able to be blessed tenfold? I feel like we are all in that same space of being hit by a million trials and remaining in a space of righteousness. But yet something is preventing God from blessing us tenfold. Is that something that I can overcome now to create different results or am I limiting myself and I need a perspective shift? Or have I yet to learn the lesson? And is the end result really a space free of trials? During the second coming Satan will be bound is that to show us that God can offer us a environment to progress without the heavy opposition? Or is Satan bound because we no longer give him power over us? Am I unintentionally giving Satan power to create destruction in my life? Did Job lose everything cause he had everything so I'm afraid to have more because I'm afraid it will all be taken away? Is there a chance my own righteousness is based upon an expectation that God will bless me rather than a willingness to follow Him even if i receive nothing in return? Is my commitment to God contingent on receiving a miracle?
I asked Job. I could see him in a space of comfort prior to losing everything. But when i asked to see further he said. "I am nobody".
Instead, i saw myself in my current life of comfort. What if i lost my home, family, money, job, etc. Leaving me with nothing. Would i still feel blessed? Do i feel entitled as though i deserve all i have? Is my value based on people needing me? Thats ego, not faith. Am i only willing to endure IF theres a mansion in heaven awaiting me?
When i imagine myself with nothing, the losing it part is too much to imagine. But after its become accepted, i see myself sitting on the earth and being alone with my thoughts. I still want to feel Gods love. I still want to learn. Then someone hands me an apple and i weep in gratitude. Everything is a gift. Nothing is mine. Thats the illusion. I am nothing without God. He offers me everything i have as a gift. Im not entitled... Im loved. His love is free. The more i sacrifice, the more i can receive.
Job's gratitude for everything increased tenfold. What if all he received was an apple? Would his gratitide be so full that it felt like like he was blessed tenfold? I am so overfilled with blessings ive become greedy wanting more or expecting more. I have so much, its almost too much to express gratitude for.
We will all lose everything... When we die.
Why do we resist and hold on tighter fearing that loss? What if this is the law of sacrifice? Christ invites us to "Come Follow Me". Give up everything and be filled with what is real, true fulfillment, true love. And give up the desires of the flesh, the natural man, the temporary desires and let God fill us with everlasting joy.
We all seek this. If i seek blessings from God or if i feel God should be offering me more, i must sacrifice all i have. Even feel gratitude for the opportunity to give up "my ways" and stop limiting myself to start living so much more. What if all i seek is less than all God has to offer? What if it boils down to feeling unlovable? If i truly believed God loves me, then id know that His ways are far more fulfilling than i can even imagine. Am i willing to sacrifice my ego? Sacrifice temporal expectations? And live my purpose? Dedicate my life to God expecting nothing in return, just happy to know everything is a gift and offered freely out of love. What if i chose to give away everything God gives me because im so full of love for others that i feel honored to share knowing its an endless supply of abundance?
But i wont have enough? How can i still think that? Because i dont believe that what i have is a gift. I still think that i worked hard and earned everything i have. Why and how can i still think that while also expecting God to offer blessings.? I want both.
Who i do i choose to follow?
I dont want to lose anything. Im afraid of losing it all. Im afraid i wont be able to survive it?
Its fear. Im afraid. Im still listening to the lies of the natural man. I still seek personal gain. I still think im in control. Maybe i need to be humbled.
God didnt bless Job and take away all the suffering. The true miracle was a change of heart. The sacrifice of his ego. Humility amidst the trial. I thought i was humble but maybe im not. I want to be.
Maybe we dont believe God loves us. Did Job still believe God loved him after losing it all?
I put myself up as a sacrifice for Job. He was hit so hard. It was too much for one person. Please take me or anything of mine. Job needs a miracle, he needs to feel the love of God through me. I am willing to help relieve his suffering so he is not alone in this trial. Please take from me instead.
Theres a rebuilding from the ground up. Being willing to be molded from scratch. The true miracle is the change of heart. No more should be expected. Not sacrificed for anything but a true depth of love for Job and God.
I can now practice the law of sacrifice and the law of tithing - sharing all i have (spiritual blessing, physical blessings and love)
Law of sacrifice: Experiencing the trial as i feel deep gratitude and embrace the trial with a new heart as an offerimg for Job.
Law of tithing: Not just standing in his place and taking the burden of the attack but also offering all that I have to share the blessings in my life. What if he was blessed tenfold because others offered to share what they had with Job? We can do that too with a willingness to offer love and energy.
Maybe the miracle isnt waiting for Gods blessings once the trial has been endured, but an opportunity to learn for ourselves how to be like God and practice loving one another.
While doing this everyone in my house overloaded me with demands and i broke down. I thought all these people are taking and still expecting more. I dont feel a desire to offer more. Would God our Father feel desirous to bless us when we are demanding more, always consuming energy? Or when we are relieving His burdens by serving others and constantly sharing and lifting others up? His gratitude for us would be returned, but as His offering for our sacrifice done with the spirit of love.
Thoughts from a client/student:
I had a thought how interesting his name is Job. If we pronounce his name job as in work/career...that can be taken from us. Physical realm. We think our job is our security, our paycheck, when in reality it's God we desire security from. God is the source of money and blessings. Give up the natural man and desire to serve God and allow him to bless us ten fold.
I'm being granted access and taken to that point in time.
I see him humbly working the fields. He has a loving family and plenty of crops and animals on his farm. He looks quite blessed. He is also very dedicated and prayer and faith.
As I'm watching a few thoughts are popping in my mind. Why is it that some people have extraordinary trials when others seem to have it fairly easy? Is that even true or is that just the deceived perception leading us away from the truth.
Now from everything I've been taught so far God does not have favorites and there's no hierarchy that is a false perception. However the scriptures do say that job was highly favored in God's eye. So am I wrong in that understanding or do we misunderstand the statement in the scriptures? And why did God let Satan destroy everything? Is it just to teach us a lesson?
Does Job represent all of us? Are we all favored in God's eye when given opportunities to overcome great trials and when we still choose to follow him then we are given blessings. Was it important for us to understand that God did not prevent Satan from attacking. And if we keep our Focus and the proper alignment then God can bless us tenfold. Maybe everything fell apart because he needed to be humbled or maybe everything fell apart because he had a worldly perspective of his gifts even though he was a righteous man. Which is true for many of us where we are committed and dedicated to God but yet life seems to just keep throwing us into more trials. What did he do to remain in a space where he was able to be blessed tenfold? I feel like we are all in that same space of being hit by a million trials and remaining in a space of righteousness. But yet something is preventing God from blessing us tenfold. Is that something that I can overcome now to create different results or am I limiting myself and I need a perspective shift? Or have I yet to learn the lesson? And is the end result really a space free of trials? During the second coming Satan will be bound is that to show us that God can offer us a environment to progress without the heavy opposition? Or is Satan bound because we no longer give him power over us? Am I unintentionally giving Satan power to create destruction in my life? Did Job lose everything cause he had everything so I'm afraid to have more because I'm afraid it will all be taken away? Is there a chance my own righteousness is based upon an expectation that God will bless me rather than a willingness to follow Him even if i receive nothing in return? Is my commitment to God contingent on receiving a miracle?
I asked Job. I could see him in a space of comfort prior to losing everything. But when i asked to see further he said. "I am nobody".
Instead, i saw myself in my current life of comfort. What if i lost my home, family, money, job, etc. Leaving me with nothing. Would i still feel blessed? Do i feel entitled as though i deserve all i have? Is my value based on people needing me? Thats ego, not faith. Am i only willing to endure IF theres a mansion in heaven awaiting me?
When i imagine myself with nothing, the losing it part is too much to imagine. But after its become accepted, i see myself sitting on the earth and being alone with my thoughts. I still want to feel Gods love. I still want to learn. Then someone hands me an apple and i weep in gratitude. Everything is a gift. Nothing is mine. Thats the illusion. I am nothing without God. He offers me everything i have as a gift. Im not entitled... Im loved. His love is free. The more i sacrifice, the more i can receive.
Job's gratitude for everything increased tenfold. What if all he received was an apple? Would his gratitide be so full that it felt like like he was blessed tenfold? I am so overfilled with blessings ive become greedy wanting more or expecting more. I have so much, its almost too much to express gratitude for.
We will all lose everything... When we die.
Why do we resist and hold on tighter fearing that loss? What if this is the law of sacrifice? Christ invites us to "Come Follow Me". Give up everything and be filled with what is real, true fulfillment, true love. And give up the desires of the flesh, the natural man, the temporary desires and let God fill us with everlasting joy.
We all seek this. If i seek blessings from God or if i feel God should be offering me more, i must sacrifice all i have. Even feel gratitude for the opportunity to give up "my ways" and stop limiting myself to start living so much more. What if all i seek is less than all God has to offer? What if it boils down to feeling unlovable? If i truly believed God loves me, then id know that His ways are far more fulfilling than i can even imagine. Am i willing to sacrifice my ego? Sacrifice temporal expectations? And live my purpose? Dedicate my life to God expecting nothing in return, just happy to know everything is a gift and offered freely out of love. What if i chose to give away everything God gives me because im so full of love for others that i feel honored to share knowing its an endless supply of abundance?
But i wont have enough? How can i still think that? Because i dont believe that what i have is a gift. I still think that i worked hard and earned everything i have. Why and how can i still think that while also expecting God to offer blessings.? I want both.
Who i do i choose to follow?
I dont want to lose anything. Im afraid of losing it all. Im afraid i wont be able to survive it?
Its fear. Im afraid. Im still listening to the lies of the natural man. I still seek personal gain. I still think im in control. Maybe i need to be humbled.
God didnt bless Job and take away all the suffering. The true miracle was a change of heart. The sacrifice of his ego. Humility amidst the trial. I thought i was humble but maybe im not. I want to be.
Maybe we dont believe God loves us. Did Job still believe God loved him after losing it all?
I put myself up as a sacrifice for Job. He was hit so hard. It was too much for one person. Please take me or anything of mine. Job needs a miracle, he needs to feel the love of God through me. I am willing to help relieve his suffering so he is not alone in this trial. Please take from me instead.
Theres a rebuilding from the ground up. Being willing to be molded from scratch. The true miracle is the change of heart. No more should be expected. Not sacrificed for anything but a true depth of love for Job and God.
I can now practice the law of sacrifice and the law of tithing - sharing all i have (spiritual blessing, physical blessings and love)
Law of sacrifice: Experiencing the trial as i feel deep gratitude and embrace the trial with a new heart as an offerimg for Job.
Law of tithing: Not just standing in his place and taking the burden of the attack but also offering all that I have to share the blessings in my life. What if he was blessed tenfold because others offered to share what they had with Job? We can do that too with a willingness to offer love and energy.
Maybe the miracle isnt waiting for Gods blessings once the trial has been endured, but an opportunity to learn for ourselves how to be like God and practice loving one another.
While doing this everyone in my house overloaded me with demands and i broke down. I thought all these people are taking and still expecting more. I dont feel a desire to offer more. Would God our Father feel desirous to bless us when we are demanding more, always consuming energy? Or when we are relieving His burdens by serving others and constantly sharing and lifting others up? His gratitude for us would be returned, but as His offering for our sacrifice done with the spirit of love.
Thoughts from a client/student:
I had a thought how interesting his name is Job. If we pronounce his name job as in work/career...that can be taken from us. Physical realm. We think our job is our security, our paycheck, when in reality it's God we desire security from. God is the source of money and blessings. Give up the natural man and desire to serve God and allow him to bless us ten fold.