ISAIAH
ISAIAH
The writings of Isaiah are so advanced, I felt insufficient, I am not educated enough to understand the way Isaiah speaks in the scriptures. And then I realized, I am using my lack of education as a reason to not be able to adequately receive education. LOL. Do I believe that God teaches me in the way that I can comprehend? And do I trust that God is real and offering all of the knowledge I am ready to receive?
I began with a prayer and asked ever so humbly if I am worthy to learn from Isaiah and if that is indeed the prophet I am to learn from today. I saw myself standing before Isaiah in his time period. He was aware of my presence consciously. I introduced myself and said that my physical body is in the year 2024. I could see his excitement growing and he said I've been expecting you. He's actually excited to ask me questions.
I'm explaining that I am not an angel and I'm not a scholar. Any information I share is imperfect, but as accurate as I can offer. I'm also telling him that his writings are still alive and used in the scriptures across the world, although the depth of his writings are difficult for me to understand as they seem to contain many layers of interpretation. He said, "Aahh indeed, do you think it not my intention? The Lord speaks the truth to the heart. Imagery is the shared language of us all."
I started to share information first so I can spend the bulk of the time learning from him. I said you already know everything that's important as God shared it with you. What can I share? He wanted to know the state of the hearts of the people in the world. I shared with him my images of church and within many religions and many faithful followers who seek righteousness within their congregations. He said, “how interesting”. I shared with him images of the homeless beggars on the side of the street. He cried. I thought of the Salt Lake City LDS Temple being gutted out right now. He put his finger on the side of his nose and said, “yes, I’ve seen that too”. I thought of my home and my family and he desired to spiritually walk about my life the way that I have spiritually traveled to walk about his. I invited him in my home.
I told him that I was working and he asked me to show him. I couldn't see anything but he could. He said I am desensitized. He told me to look on his back and I saw all of his experiences like a scar or badge of honor or a story written on his back as part of him that he takes with him. He uses all of his experiences from life no matter how easy or hard.
He showed me that we tend to erase experiences thinking they are not useful or ashamed or attempting to forget difficult memories. Apparently, a lot of us tend to do this where we desire to erase the difficulties in life from our stories in order to feel better, rather than carry them with us. He says that the trials and challenges of life change us. When we embrace the changes, we are open to grow and we wear those challenges with Pride as it is part of our story and life experience. It is time to learn how to shift our perspectives so that we can peer upon past events as they truly are. Let's give up God a voice and teach the people how to embrace the challenges and wear these experiences with pride.
He's showing me with his actions: He is lifting Lumber and moving it. Then chopping the wood. He’s sweating and exhausted. He is explaining that it’s hard work. Was this worth his time? Was the labor a burden to him? What is the purpose of chopping wood? A: To be able to use wood for fuel or building supplies. Do I want to eat? A: Yes. Do I need that wood for the fire so I can eat? A: Yes. If I do not chop that wood, what will I eat? A: It makes no sense to avoid the difficulty of chopping the wood, but still expect to have my meal cooked. We tend to do this in life, we want the end result but we want to avoid the difficult part. We even go so far as to misunderstand the purpose of those difficult parts of life and think it is possible through righteousness and obedience to experience a bounty of blessings without experiencing the trials as well. The growth and the strength are Godly. It is misrepresenting God to presume challenges will be spared or protection from struggles is a sign of righteousness. The point reached where effort is appreciated is a sign of growth, leads to the creation of one's belief system that all effort produces a result that is desirable. So how do we implement this.
The lesson is not how to get rid of the trial or the illness. We minister to the heart. Feeling joy for the opportunity offered with the trial. Reaching joy is a journey worth your time. Challenges are not reserved for the weak or for the strong. They simply exist. When we accept this, we can coexist. We can learn how to use it. How to appreciate the challenge. Even feel gratitude for the opportunity to experience the challenge. An example is cheering on your child as they face opposition, knowing the purpose of that challenge, and receiving your own growth as a lesson to instill the Light of Christ within your own heart.
I'm being reminded of a dream that I had last night. Before falling asleep, I asked Isaiah to share any images with my dreams that might also be beneficial in my lessons today. In my dream my mother and another driver had some conflict on the road. The other driver left a note at the front of the neighborhood on a billboard that spouted some strong words representing her anger, frustration and blame. My mother responded with a very long note back spouting peaceful and Godly messages. And then she posted dozens of envelopes inviting other people to leave their prayer requests so my mother could put their names in the temple. I stood by and saw this billboard covered in excess and processed my own emotions.
The other lady filled with intense emotions and possibly feeling judged by my mother’s response and maybe even thinking my mom was using God as a weapon. Maybe the other lady was feeling victimized and felt my mom was wrong. Maybe she was sick of being used and learning to stand up for herself. Maybe she was having a bad day and feeling like the whole world was against her.
My mother most likely thought this was an opportunity to share God’s love and had good intentions, but completely unaware that her words would fall on deaf ears. My mom was probably trying to change the woman’s way of treating people. My mom probably felt like the strong words were a direct attack on her as a person. My mom probably felt the other woman was wrong and needed to know the verbal attack warranted an apology.
As the bystander, I thought both of them lost a whole day focusing on conflict rather than the important things in their lives, possibly creating far more conflict than necessary. I also thought they were inviting others to join in the drama by sharing these messages publicly, seeking validation, but creating a larger ripple of adversarial influence. I thought I needed to clean up the conflict, so it was no longer visible to other people and I was a bit embarrassed. I thought the solution was to tell both women how to handle this situation “my way” …
I thought, is this how we often go about conflict, attempting to change the other person? Who am I to say that either side is wrong? The other woman was frustrated, but learning how to stand up for herself. My mother was frustrated, but learning how to listen to the spirit and share a message of righteousness. Both sides felt right and had an opportunity to learn through the process, but there was still conflict. What does God want us to learn or do? We have all been the woman angry and lashing out or having a bad day or feeling overwhelmed or just at the end of the rope. We have all been the woman trying to peacefully soften the other person's heart or change their behavior or defending herself. We have all been the bystander either taking sides or trying to mediate the conflict or judging either person. Even thinking, I would have handled that so much better than they did. We’ve all seen that conflict never seems to create the results we seek, but the patterns never seem to change. We are stuck in a redundant cycle within marriages, families, work environments, with strangers, and with ourselves.
But the question is, what does God want to teach me with this imagery offered in my dream? Am I to understand the purpose of how the original trial can offer an opportunity to learn and gain experience? Am I to learn how to respect each person's agency? Am I to learn how to overcome this trial? I started reflecting on how most trials are much worse than a simple road conflict. Which led me to ask, why do we have agency and opposition? I already know the basic answer, but when trials are upon us, we can hardly learn because the trial feels like it's crushing us. Is this an opportunity learn how to stand up for myself? Is this an opportunity to learn how to be a mouthpiece for God and find the lost sheep? Is this an opportunity to learn how to stay out of conflict and be the peacekeeper?
What if it's an opportunity is learning how to have the heart of Christ? Maybe the only way I can learn how to do that is during the trials. Maybe I had to learn for myself what each of these emotions feel like, so I can recognize the importance of how I treat others. Maybe I had to learn how hard it was when I myself sinned or hurt others and relied on the patience and forgiveness and service of others. Or maybe I have to learn how to have healthy boundaries. Maybe the trial in my life isn't bad, maybe the trial is simply part of the journey of life. The way that God teaches is by experiencing things firsthand for ourselves. The problem is when I try to avoid trials or misunderstand that righteousness equals less trials. Maybe I'll never learn how to love my enemy if I don't have an enemy. Love is not the same thing as approving someone's actions. I feel bad when somebody treats my kids bad. Maybe God feels that way when I act in pride and boost myself up as always being in the right and blame everybody else to make myself feel better. Maybe God feels bad when I blame myself for everything that goes wrong in life too. Maybe, instead, I could use that as an opportunity to learn what the purpose of this trial really is and embrace it as an opportunity to experience these feelings and these events and learn how to have the heart of Christ. To learn how to peacefully coexist with all types of people in all walks of life. And how to focus on Christ amidst to the storm.
If I choose to focus on Christ and having love in my heart, then how can that change the experiences that I am going through with each trial?
Consider feeling grateful that this amazing body that God offered me, it is able to communicate when darkness has increased. It's like my body is guiding me to find my way back to God. And not to misunderstand thinking that as long as I am pure light, I will never be sick; rather, always being willing to learn how to do better, how to love better and how to have God teach me. I am nothing. I am mortal. I make a million mistakes. I need God to teach me. Sometimes, I think I have to hold it all together. Sometimes, I think I'm all alone. Sometimes, I think I'm not good enough. Sometimes, I think everything needs to be done my way. Maybe, sometimes, I need to get down on my knees and ask God to teach me His way. Maybe, I think I already have, but maybe I asked God to take away the trial and when that didn’t happen, I felt betrayed and alone. Or I asked Him to tell me what to do instead of giving Him the opportunity to teach me what I can learn from this experience. Even Job was righteous and had to experience trials. Maybe, that trial has nothing to do with being tested or somebody else misusing their agency or being attacked by Satan. Maybe, that trial just simply exists and maybe I can learn to stop resisting the process and embrace the lessons in order to advance myself and bring that light back into my life of God's love.
The goal is to feel better. The goal is to feel peace and love and light in your life. The path to get there is unclear as we have tried it many different ways. So, rather than releasing the discomfort, let's lean into it and figure out what else we could learn or if we have already learned all that God wishes to share. Let’s let go of pride and ego. Let go of controlling the situation to create the end result that I desire. Instead, opening up to letting God show me a better way. Reaffirming your identity as a child of God. Taking your position as part of the Godhood and remembering Satan has no power over you unless you give him that power. Remembering God can help us find our way to the peace and light and love that we seek. And humble ourselves enough to let him direct the path, because we know He loves us and will show us a better way. Any thought preventing that connection is deception. And I get to choose who to listen to and who to believe. I choose to believe that I am a child of God. And I choose to remove all of the power that the adversary has had to create unnecessary suffering distracting me from my true mission in life and my family and my own personal growth.
We want the outcome of peace and love and light, but we are trying to attain it with control; particularly, the controlling of someone else’s actions. Or trying to change others. Or avoiding trials entirely. And then we don't understand why we feel the darkness from the adversary rather than the light from God. Many have a righteous heart, but an unwillingness to try this life through God's perspective or to experience the trials God's way. Trials can serve a purpose as it offers you the experience of learning for yourself, but if you seek God's way you must submit your heart.
I reflected on the dream once again and realized it was never about God's way or my way. It was never about my mom's way or the other lady's way. There is no one singular way to learn these lessons. God desires our individuality to assist us in this process of life. We are not simply robots doing everything that God tells us to do. We are learning and growing and stretching our wings. God loves seeing us develop and choose for ourselves! He never meant to be the one to micromanage all of our experiences. Yet, He also desires to teach us how to reach those goals, so we do not get off track and lose our way. The details of how to get there is up to us. God is teaching us how to have a heart of Christ naturally reside within us. He is helping us to be aware of others and our own body communicating with us. He's helping us to understand teamwork and duality and partnership and Godhood. He will direct us when we get off track and offer guidance. However, in a situation like the one in my dream, there is no right response. Every response is an experience and an opportunity to learn and grow. Everything serves a purpose. We are free to create our experiences here on Earth. Not to be confused with being free to pick or control our trials. We, also, must learn humility and how to depend on others and how to depend on God and how to serve others. God really does love us and he really does want to help us succeed. Succeed in becoming just like Him.
Your freedom has already been paid for, you just forgot. You've forgot your value and your worth. You forgot the purpose of the opposition and how beautiful you really are. Not how beautiful that you can be or your potential or how beautiful you are when you're in your best self. You forgot how beautiful you are at all times to your Heavenly Father. God sees you as a whole person. Everything you've been through. Every part of your spiritual growth. All of your choices and how they have formed you. Heavenly Father is excited to watch you grow and is always and has always had His arms outstretched to comfort you when it's hard. Sometimes it's hard to accept that He doesn't take the pain away, but He has always cheering you on. God wants you to see yourself the way He sees you and He wants to touch your heart and show you that you were formed out of love. You radiate pure love; you can shine that love and direct others during their storms. They need you. You have so much to offer the world. You have such a lovely soul and you deserve everything the world has to offer.
A miracle is not when God takes the challenge away or eliminates all suffering. The miracle occurs within the heart. That is when any storm can rage, but you can walk into the storm with your arms outstretched and fully embrace yourself as a child of the most divine Creator. Remember who you are and you can overcome all things in time.
The next day, I asked Isaiah, if there was more he could teach me. I was surprised when I found Christ chatting with Isaiah when I arrived. There was joy upon their faces and in their countenances. I do not wish to burden him or lead him from his lessons either. They explained that I misunderstood, Christ was waiting for me to join them to offer my lessons for today.
I started reflecting on my own thoughts. I know that God wants to teach based upon where I am and what concerns I have or lessons I would like to learn. I started reflecting how God has challenged me to start speaking up for Him in order to help lead people to recognize their own choice and where they place their focus. This means that I do not primarily focus on cleaning situations up, but I also minister and share messages with each person that God wishes me to share with. In doing so, I have been surprised that when a solution is offered that can completely transform the patterns that are creating suffering, only half the time is that council seen as the miracle. Sometimes, that miracle is deeply received and the heart is healed. Once that heart is healed it doesn't matter what symptom or trial occurred; the understanding and awareness of the purpose of that trial far exceed any discomfort, with the included suffering, even presenting a willingness.
The other half of the time, the person receiving that miracle for the heart is unwilling to make a change without the trial being removed or the symptom being healed. At first, I felt frustrated; however, I do not wish to control another person's experience and, instead, chose to love both types of receivers. I asked Christ if this was why He offered the physical miracles as well as offering the sermons to the heart? If the physical suffering is a critical part of the journey, then why have it relieved? Why isn't every miracle offered by softening the heart and teaching the importance of the willingness to endure all trials. Each trial has the potential to leads us to creating that heart of Christ within ourselves, so that we can understand how to do far more than just follow Christ's lead. We can also step into our divine potential and become like God ourselves. How is relieving that trial or symptom going to be equally beneficial? Why do some receive the miracle to the heart and some received the miracle to relieving the flesh of the suffering? And how do you choose? How do I act on God's behalf and know within my heart how to minister? If I relieve the suffering, what if they do not find their way back to God the same way that the suffering might have created? If I know that the suffering is not a burden and learning how to realize it's not a burden, how is relieving that burden going to create that result?
Christ responded and asked me if I was physically suffering? I said no I'm not. He asked me if I was still suffering from my brain tumor or thyroid disease or autoimmune disease or breast cancer? He asked me if my son still had a heart defect? He asked me if my son still struggles to breathe? He asked me if I was still married to an abusive man? He asked me if I still felt trapped in my body or marriage or life? He asked me if I had a beautiful marriage and a beautiful family that I continuously thank God for every single day, because we live in a peaceful home. He asked me if I felt gratitude for the challenge that I faced when I fought for my freedom from my abuser? He asked me if I did any of that alone. I was crying too much to answer.
Ok, I see now, the miracle really does teach just as much as the suffering does. If miracles have always been offered freely to me, then why should the miracle be restricted for anyone else? He slowed down and put his hand on my shoulder. Did the hard times feel dark? Yes, they did. How much joy was in your heart when you found your way back to love and within the loving embrace of your dear companion? How much gentler was your heart? How much more grateful was your countenance? Your son struggled to walk; many years of effort supported him. How much more was your joy when he took those steps? Was that joy limited? Was there a purpose for the struggle? Was there growth resulting from the effort to overcome the struggle? And was there a miracle when he took those steps? You see, the physical miracle that I offered to the people and still offer to you every single day is never limited. It is all part of The Grand Design. When I healed the crippled man, did that remove the suffering he endured? Did that limit his future suffering? It paved the path for him to strengthen his foundation that God is without limits. Why do I sit with Isaiah here today? Why am I teaching him and not go to the Father? Do I not have faith that God the Father can come down and offer these lessons himself? Why did Isaiah teach you yesterday and not me? We are each on a journey, we are part of a grand design within a structure of Godly truth. We seek to understand that truth. Isaiah seeks to learn those truths and he desires to share that with you and all others that read his words within the scripture. It Is Well with him. I too seek to act on behalf of my Father and walk in His footsteps. Just as you seek to learn from us and share that knowledge with others. It is shared with you, because you do not keep it for yourself. Just the same as I have chosen to share the words of our Father.
Regarding healing, is the whole point to learn how to trust in God? Or to learn to put our faith in something outside of ourselves? Or to learn how to create duality? Or is my focus misdirected? If I understand the purpose of the struggle and I have faith in God and I have learned the lessons, am I to learn to appreciate the ongoing physical suffering or when it no longer serves a purpose is it relieved, so I may witness that miracle and strengthen my testimony and continue my journey learning something new? Jesus Christ approached me in my home and he said stop and breathe. And then he said let me show you and stood at my head. I thought to myself I cannot imagine what would be the most appropriate thing to ask for. Maybe, I do not even know the potential of my body. Maybe I have been so hyper focused on the symptoms I don't even know what potentials my body possesses. Maybe my body is anxious to experience far more than just communicating when I'm struggling. Okay I do have something that I would like to receive from Christ if he is offering. I would like to start learning the potential of my body when I have chosen to follow God and live my life in a manner free from all the worldly distractions. While being completely teachable and open to all of creation knowing there is an energetic invitation offered freely that I had been limiting myself to receive. So concerned with my own imperfections and so concerned with external attacks that I had missed out. Knowing it's not about me. I'm seeking to follow the path that Christ has laid, while eagerly awaiting further light and knowledge with a willingness to share as a humble servant of God.
The flesh, the fallen and the risen are divided within me. Arise and take your place on the right-hand side of God. The heart is pierced through with a sword. What is death? It's an awakening, not an ending. Your hands have the power to heal if you let them. And I am seeing light radiating from my hands. Your feet can offer life to the Earth if you let them. Your words can offer life to the deaf if you speak them.
Christ stood at my head and touched my head and showed me: We are beings of pure energy. That energy is ever flowing within the universe. I am the universe; the universe is me. Burdens have no weight as they do not exist, they are perceived and perceptions teach, they form, they nurture, but they do not carry weight. The spirit within me is pure intelligence, pure energy. It is not me or mine, I am one with all intelligence. God formed me from intelligent energy. I can share energy, move with energy, see with energy, heal with energy. Matter forms and moves and changes at the will of God. The energy that is my spirit has been taught, directed, and molded through eternities until I was formed enough to have an experience with a body of matter. Walking on water, the living energy can lift the flesh. As we share this powerful energy source with one another, we are stepping into that Godly power and seeing miracles come about.
I started to reflect on how mankind seeks healing, but also fears deception or apostacy. This fear separates us from advancing, but remaining complacent is creating frustration with God. What is the solution? Christ smiled and beckoned for me to follow Him. The choice is always yours, not to be confused with altering the experiences of others.
to be cont....
The writings of Isaiah are so advanced, I felt insufficient, I am not educated enough to understand the way Isaiah speaks in the scriptures. And then I realized, I am using my lack of education as a reason to not be able to adequately receive education. LOL. Do I believe that God teaches me in the way that I can comprehend? And do I trust that God is real and offering all of the knowledge I am ready to receive?
I began with a prayer and asked ever so humbly if I am worthy to learn from Isaiah and if that is indeed the prophet I am to learn from today. I saw myself standing before Isaiah in his time period. He was aware of my presence consciously. I introduced myself and said that my physical body is in the year 2024. I could see his excitement growing and he said I've been expecting you. He's actually excited to ask me questions.
I'm explaining that I am not an angel and I'm not a scholar. Any information I share is imperfect, but as accurate as I can offer. I'm also telling him that his writings are still alive and used in the scriptures across the world, although the depth of his writings are difficult for me to understand as they seem to contain many layers of interpretation. He said, "Aahh indeed, do you think it not my intention? The Lord speaks the truth to the heart. Imagery is the shared language of us all."
I started to share information first so I can spend the bulk of the time learning from him. I said you already know everything that's important as God shared it with you. What can I share? He wanted to know the state of the hearts of the people in the world. I shared with him my images of church and within many religions and many faithful followers who seek righteousness within their congregations. He said, “how interesting”. I shared with him images of the homeless beggars on the side of the street. He cried. I thought of the Salt Lake City LDS Temple being gutted out right now. He put his finger on the side of his nose and said, “yes, I’ve seen that too”. I thought of my home and my family and he desired to spiritually walk about my life the way that I have spiritually traveled to walk about his. I invited him in my home.
I told him that I was working and he asked me to show him. I couldn't see anything but he could. He said I am desensitized. He told me to look on his back and I saw all of his experiences like a scar or badge of honor or a story written on his back as part of him that he takes with him. He uses all of his experiences from life no matter how easy or hard.
He showed me that we tend to erase experiences thinking they are not useful or ashamed or attempting to forget difficult memories. Apparently, a lot of us tend to do this where we desire to erase the difficulties in life from our stories in order to feel better, rather than carry them with us. He says that the trials and challenges of life change us. When we embrace the changes, we are open to grow and we wear those challenges with Pride as it is part of our story and life experience. It is time to learn how to shift our perspectives so that we can peer upon past events as they truly are. Let's give up God a voice and teach the people how to embrace the challenges and wear these experiences with pride.
He's showing me with his actions: He is lifting Lumber and moving it. Then chopping the wood. He’s sweating and exhausted. He is explaining that it’s hard work. Was this worth his time? Was the labor a burden to him? What is the purpose of chopping wood? A: To be able to use wood for fuel or building supplies. Do I want to eat? A: Yes. Do I need that wood for the fire so I can eat? A: Yes. If I do not chop that wood, what will I eat? A: It makes no sense to avoid the difficulty of chopping the wood, but still expect to have my meal cooked. We tend to do this in life, we want the end result but we want to avoid the difficult part. We even go so far as to misunderstand the purpose of those difficult parts of life and think it is possible through righteousness and obedience to experience a bounty of blessings without experiencing the trials as well. The growth and the strength are Godly. It is misrepresenting God to presume challenges will be spared or protection from struggles is a sign of righteousness. The point reached where effort is appreciated is a sign of growth, leads to the creation of one's belief system that all effort produces a result that is desirable. So how do we implement this.
The lesson is not how to get rid of the trial or the illness. We minister to the heart. Feeling joy for the opportunity offered with the trial. Reaching joy is a journey worth your time. Challenges are not reserved for the weak or for the strong. They simply exist. When we accept this, we can coexist. We can learn how to use it. How to appreciate the challenge. Even feel gratitude for the opportunity to experience the challenge. An example is cheering on your child as they face opposition, knowing the purpose of that challenge, and receiving your own growth as a lesson to instill the Light of Christ within your own heart.
I'm being reminded of a dream that I had last night. Before falling asleep, I asked Isaiah to share any images with my dreams that might also be beneficial in my lessons today. In my dream my mother and another driver had some conflict on the road. The other driver left a note at the front of the neighborhood on a billboard that spouted some strong words representing her anger, frustration and blame. My mother responded with a very long note back spouting peaceful and Godly messages. And then she posted dozens of envelopes inviting other people to leave their prayer requests so my mother could put their names in the temple. I stood by and saw this billboard covered in excess and processed my own emotions.
The other lady filled with intense emotions and possibly feeling judged by my mother’s response and maybe even thinking my mom was using God as a weapon. Maybe the other lady was feeling victimized and felt my mom was wrong. Maybe she was sick of being used and learning to stand up for herself. Maybe she was having a bad day and feeling like the whole world was against her.
My mother most likely thought this was an opportunity to share God’s love and had good intentions, but completely unaware that her words would fall on deaf ears. My mom was probably trying to change the woman’s way of treating people. My mom probably felt like the strong words were a direct attack on her as a person. My mom probably felt the other woman was wrong and needed to know the verbal attack warranted an apology.
As the bystander, I thought both of them lost a whole day focusing on conflict rather than the important things in their lives, possibly creating far more conflict than necessary. I also thought they were inviting others to join in the drama by sharing these messages publicly, seeking validation, but creating a larger ripple of adversarial influence. I thought I needed to clean up the conflict, so it was no longer visible to other people and I was a bit embarrassed. I thought the solution was to tell both women how to handle this situation “my way” …
I thought, is this how we often go about conflict, attempting to change the other person? Who am I to say that either side is wrong? The other woman was frustrated, but learning how to stand up for herself. My mother was frustrated, but learning how to listen to the spirit and share a message of righteousness. Both sides felt right and had an opportunity to learn through the process, but there was still conflict. What does God want us to learn or do? We have all been the woman angry and lashing out or having a bad day or feeling overwhelmed or just at the end of the rope. We have all been the woman trying to peacefully soften the other person's heart or change their behavior or defending herself. We have all been the bystander either taking sides or trying to mediate the conflict or judging either person. Even thinking, I would have handled that so much better than they did. We’ve all seen that conflict never seems to create the results we seek, but the patterns never seem to change. We are stuck in a redundant cycle within marriages, families, work environments, with strangers, and with ourselves.
But the question is, what does God want to teach me with this imagery offered in my dream? Am I to understand the purpose of how the original trial can offer an opportunity to learn and gain experience? Am I to learn how to respect each person's agency? Am I to learn how to overcome this trial? I started reflecting on how most trials are much worse than a simple road conflict. Which led me to ask, why do we have agency and opposition? I already know the basic answer, but when trials are upon us, we can hardly learn because the trial feels like it's crushing us. Is this an opportunity learn how to stand up for myself? Is this an opportunity to learn how to be a mouthpiece for God and find the lost sheep? Is this an opportunity to learn how to stay out of conflict and be the peacekeeper?
What if it's an opportunity is learning how to have the heart of Christ? Maybe the only way I can learn how to do that is during the trials. Maybe I had to learn for myself what each of these emotions feel like, so I can recognize the importance of how I treat others. Maybe I had to learn how hard it was when I myself sinned or hurt others and relied on the patience and forgiveness and service of others. Or maybe I have to learn how to have healthy boundaries. Maybe the trial in my life isn't bad, maybe the trial is simply part of the journey of life. The way that God teaches is by experiencing things firsthand for ourselves. The problem is when I try to avoid trials or misunderstand that righteousness equals less trials. Maybe I'll never learn how to love my enemy if I don't have an enemy. Love is not the same thing as approving someone's actions. I feel bad when somebody treats my kids bad. Maybe God feels that way when I act in pride and boost myself up as always being in the right and blame everybody else to make myself feel better. Maybe God feels bad when I blame myself for everything that goes wrong in life too. Maybe, instead, I could use that as an opportunity to learn what the purpose of this trial really is and embrace it as an opportunity to experience these feelings and these events and learn how to have the heart of Christ. To learn how to peacefully coexist with all types of people in all walks of life. And how to focus on Christ amidst to the storm.
If I choose to focus on Christ and having love in my heart, then how can that change the experiences that I am going through with each trial?
- Maybe, I misunderstood Christ. I thought being Christ-like meant to back down amidst evil actions and just pretend they are not happening.
- Maybe, what it really means is learning how to have peace within my heart no matter how much chaos is all around me. When somebody is acting out in anger or vengeance or hurting someone else, it’s because they hurt inside.
- Maybe, by focusing on having God in my heart it can help the person who is making poor choices to feel that love that they are seeking.
- Maybe, they are acting out right now, because they hurt and need to feel God in their heart.
- Maybe, if I'm able to act as that source of light and love, then they will experience that miracle within their heart.
- Maybe, this is the message God is trying to teach me to bless this other person who is creating challenges in my life right now.
- Maybe it was never about me.
Consider feeling grateful that this amazing body that God offered me, it is able to communicate when darkness has increased. It's like my body is guiding me to find my way back to God. And not to misunderstand thinking that as long as I am pure light, I will never be sick; rather, always being willing to learn how to do better, how to love better and how to have God teach me. I am nothing. I am mortal. I make a million mistakes. I need God to teach me. Sometimes, I think I have to hold it all together. Sometimes, I think I'm all alone. Sometimes, I think I'm not good enough. Sometimes, I think everything needs to be done my way. Maybe, sometimes, I need to get down on my knees and ask God to teach me His way. Maybe, I think I already have, but maybe I asked God to take away the trial and when that didn’t happen, I felt betrayed and alone. Or I asked Him to tell me what to do instead of giving Him the opportunity to teach me what I can learn from this experience. Even Job was righteous and had to experience trials. Maybe, that trial has nothing to do with being tested or somebody else misusing their agency or being attacked by Satan. Maybe, that trial just simply exists and maybe I can learn to stop resisting the process and embrace the lessons in order to advance myself and bring that light back into my life of God's love.
The goal is to feel better. The goal is to feel peace and love and light in your life. The path to get there is unclear as we have tried it many different ways. So, rather than releasing the discomfort, let's lean into it and figure out what else we could learn or if we have already learned all that God wishes to share. Let’s let go of pride and ego. Let go of controlling the situation to create the end result that I desire. Instead, opening up to letting God show me a better way. Reaffirming your identity as a child of God. Taking your position as part of the Godhood and remembering Satan has no power over you unless you give him that power. Remembering God can help us find our way to the peace and light and love that we seek. And humble ourselves enough to let him direct the path, because we know He loves us and will show us a better way. Any thought preventing that connection is deception. And I get to choose who to listen to and who to believe. I choose to believe that I am a child of God. And I choose to remove all of the power that the adversary has had to create unnecessary suffering distracting me from my true mission in life and my family and my own personal growth.
We want the outcome of peace and love and light, but we are trying to attain it with control; particularly, the controlling of someone else’s actions. Or trying to change others. Or avoiding trials entirely. And then we don't understand why we feel the darkness from the adversary rather than the light from God. Many have a righteous heart, but an unwillingness to try this life through God's perspective or to experience the trials God's way. Trials can serve a purpose as it offers you the experience of learning for yourself, but if you seek God's way you must submit your heart.
I reflected on the dream once again and realized it was never about God's way or my way. It was never about my mom's way or the other lady's way. There is no one singular way to learn these lessons. God desires our individuality to assist us in this process of life. We are not simply robots doing everything that God tells us to do. We are learning and growing and stretching our wings. God loves seeing us develop and choose for ourselves! He never meant to be the one to micromanage all of our experiences. Yet, He also desires to teach us how to reach those goals, so we do not get off track and lose our way. The details of how to get there is up to us. God is teaching us how to have a heart of Christ naturally reside within us. He is helping us to be aware of others and our own body communicating with us. He's helping us to understand teamwork and duality and partnership and Godhood. He will direct us when we get off track and offer guidance. However, in a situation like the one in my dream, there is no right response. Every response is an experience and an opportunity to learn and grow. Everything serves a purpose. We are free to create our experiences here on Earth. Not to be confused with being free to pick or control our trials. We, also, must learn humility and how to depend on others and how to depend on God and how to serve others. God really does love us and he really does want to help us succeed. Succeed in becoming just like Him.
Your freedom has already been paid for, you just forgot. You've forgot your value and your worth. You forgot the purpose of the opposition and how beautiful you really are. Not how beautiful that you can be or your potential or how beautiful you are when you're in your best self. You forgot how beautiful you are at all times to your Heavenly Father. God sees you as a whole person. Everything you've been through. Every part of your spiritual growth. All of your choices and how they have formed you. Heavenly Father is excited to watch you grow and is always and has always had His arms outstretched to comfort you when it's hard. Sometimes it's hard to accept that He doesn't take the pain away, but He has always cheering you on. God wants you to see yourself the way He sees you and He wants to touch your heart and show you that you were formed out of love. You radiate pure love; you can shine that love and direct others during their storms. They need you. You have so much to offer the world. You have such a lovely soul and you deserve everything the world has to offer.
A miracle is not when God takes the challenge away or eliminates all suffering. The miracle occurs within the heart. That is when any storm can rage, but you can walk into the storm with your arms outstretched and fully embrace yourself as a child of the most divine Creator. Remember who you are and you can overcome all things in time.
The next day, I asked Isaiah, if there was more he could teach me. I was surprised when I found Christ chatting with Isaiah when I arrived. There was joy upon their faces and in their countenances. I do not wish to burden him or lead him from his lessons either. They explained that I misunderstood, Christ was waiting for me to join them to offer my lessons for today.
I started reflecting on my own thoughts. I know that God wants to teach based upon where I am and what concerns I have or lessons I would like to learn. I started reflecting how God has challenged me to start speaking up for Him in order to help lead people to recognize their own choice and where they place their focus. This means that I do not primarily focus on cleaning situations up, but I also minister and share messages with each person that God wishes me to share with. In doing so, I have been surprised that when a solution is offered that can completely transform the patterns that are creating suffering, only half the time is that council seen as the miracle. Sometimes, that miracle is deeply received and the heart is healed. Once that heart is healed it doesn't matter what symptom or trial occurred; the understanding and awareness of the purpose of that trial far exceed any discomfort, with the included suffering, even presenting a willingness.
The other half of the time, the person receiving that miracle for the heart is unwilling to make a change without the trial being removed or the symptom being healed. At first, I felt frustrated; however, I do not wish to control another person's experience and, instead, chose to love both types of receivers. I asked Christ if this was why He offered the physical miracles as well as offering the sermons to the heart? If the physical suffering is a critical part of the journey, then why have it relieved? Why isn't every miracle offered by softening the heart and teaching the importance of the willingness to endure all trials. Each trial has the potential to leads us to creating that heart of Christ within ourselves, so that we can understand how to do far more than just follow Christ's lead. We can also step into our divine potential and become like God ourselves. How is relieving that trial or symptom going to be equally beneficial? Why do some receive the miracle to the heart and some received the miracle to relieving the flesh of the suffering? And how do you choose? How do I act on God's behalf and know within my heart how to minister? If I relieve the suffering, what if they do not find their way back to God the same way that the suffering might have created? If I know that the suffering is not a burden and learning how to realize it's not a burden, how is relieving that burden going to create that result?
Christ responded and asked me if I was physically suffering? I said no I'm not. He asked me if I was still suffering from my brain tumor or thyroid disease or autoimmune disease or breast cancer? He asked me if my son still had a heart defect? He asked me if my son still struggles to breathe? He asked me if I was still married to an abusive man? He asked me if I still felt trapped in my body or marriage or life? He asked me if I had a beautiful marriage and a beautiful family that I continuously thank God for every single day, because we live in a peaceful home. He asked me if I felt gratitude for the challenge that I faced when I fought for my freedom from my abuser? He asked me if I did any of that alone. I was crying too much to answer.
Ok, I see now, the miracle really does teach just as much as the suffering does. If miracles have always been offered freely to me, then why should the miracle be restricted for anyone else? He slowed down and put his hand on my shoulder. Did the hard times feel dark? Yes, they did. How much joy was in your heart when you found your way back to love and within the loving embrace of your dear companion? How much gentler was your heart? How much more grateful was your countenance? Your son struggled to walk; many years of effort supported him. How much more was your joy when he took those steps? Was that joy limited? Was there a purpose for the struggle? Was there growth resulting from the effort to overcome the struggle? And was there a miracle when he took those steps? You see, the physical miracle that I offered to the people and still offer to you every single day is never limited. It is all part of The Grand Design. When I healed the crippled man, did that remove the suffering he endured? Did that limit his future suffering? It paved the path for him to strengthen his foundation that God is without limits. Why do I sit with Isaiah here today? Why am I teaching him and not go to the Father? Do I not have faith that God the Father can come down and offer these lessons himself? Why did Isaiah teach you yesterday and not me? We are each on a journey, we are part of a grand design within a structure of Godly truth. We seek to understand that truth. Isaiah seeks to learn those truths and he desires to share that with you and all others that read his words within the scripture. It Is Well with him. I too seek to act on behalf of my Father and walk in His footsteps. Just as you seek to learn from us and share that knowledge with others. It is shared with you, because you do not keep it for yourself. Just the same as I have chosen to share the words of our Father.
Regarding healing, is the whole point to learn how to trust in God? Or to learn to put our faith in something outside of ourselves? Or to learn how to create duality? Or is my focus misdirected? If I understand the purpose of the struggle and I have faith in God and I have learned the lessons, am I to learn to appreciate the ongoing physical suffering or when it no longer serves a purpose is it relieved, so I may witness that miracle and strengthen my testimony and continue my journey learning something new? Jesus Christ approached me in my home and he said stop and breathe. And then he said let me show you and stood at my head. I thought to myself I cannot imagine what would be the most appropriate thing to ask for. Maybe, I do not even know the potential of my body. Maybe I have been so hyper focused on the symptoms I don't even know what potentials my body possesses. Maybe my body is anxious to experience far more than just communicating when I'm struggling. Okay I do have something that I would like to receive from Christ if he is offering. I would like to start learning the potential of my body when I have chosen to follow God and live my life in a manner free from all the worldly distractions. While being completely teachable and open to all of creation knowing there is an energetic invitation offered freely that I had been limiting myself to receive. So concerned with my own imperfections and so concerned with external attacks that I had missed out. Knowing it's not about me. I'm seeking to follow the path that Christ has laid, while eagerly awaiting further light and knowledge with a willingness to share as a humble servant of God.
The flesh, the fallen and the risen are divided within me. Arise and take your place on the right-hand side of God. The heart is pierced through with a sword. What is death? It's an awakening, not an ending. Your hands have the power to heal if you let them. And I am seeing light radiating from my hands. Your feet can offer life to the Earth if you let them. Your words can offer life to the deaf if you speak them.
Christ stood at my head and touched my head and showed me: We are beings of pure energy. That energy is ever flowing within the universe. I am the universe; the universe is me. Burdens have no weight as they do not exist, they are perceived and perceptions teach, they form, they nurture, but they do not carry weight. The spirit within me is pure intelligence, pure energy. It is not me or mine, I am one with all intelligence. God formed me from intelligent energy. I can share energy, move with energy, see with energy, heal with energy. Matter forms and moves and changes at the will of God. The energy that is my spirit has been taught, directed, and molded through eternities until I was formed enough to have an experience with a body of matter. Walking on water, the living energy can lift the flesh. As we share this powerful energy source with one another, we are stepping into that Godly power and seeing miracles come about.
I started to reflect on how mankind seeks healing, but also fears deception or apostacy. This fear separates us from advancing, but remaining complacent is creating frustration with God. What is the solution? Christ smiled and beckoned for me to follow Him. The choice is always yours, not to be confused with altering the experiences of others.
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